What is Something I Should Forgive Myself For?

Adrienne Beaumont
2 min readMar 22, 2023
Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash

I find forgiveness of others difficult, so why should forgiving myself be any easier?

I’m really struggling here. I’m working and the site I’m working from has gone down which is why I’ve got a minute to write something short and sweet — well maybe, not sweet.

Do I forgive myself for being at times judgemental, old-fashioned, or racist ( not racist, but sometimes the words I use are racist apparently - that’s part of the lingo I just can’t shake)?

Do I forgive myself for not loving enough, not caring enough, not being enough?

I have to face the numbers — sometimes I feel I’m too old to put up with any negativity in my life. I choose not to be around people who drag me down. Sadly some of my own children do this to me. Don’t get me wrong — I love them, but their negativity rubs off on me. I try to be positive but sometimes it’s hard.

So yes, I know he has health problems. He’s just had another major surgery. I must call to see how he’s going. So do I need to forgive myself for not checking up on him more often? Geez, I just don’t know. This prompt was a terrible one for me, but maybe it’s because my brain is filled with adventure stories. Not a good time for me to be writing, sorry.

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Adrienne Beaumont

I’m Australian. I love to travel and write about my adventures.I write about my daily life as a mother and grandmother as well as my past experiences.