I’m wondering how many of us had issues with our weight over the years. Your struggle has dented your self esteem and led to all kinds of issues. The worst thing about my struggle with weight loss is I’ve passed my fear of being fat onto my daughters in the form of eating disorders. I’m so sad for you and so proud of you for opening up. When we think we are fat, we allow people to treat our body with disrespect. It gets complicated I know. But it’s all linked.