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Do I Consider Myself an Easily Loveable Person?
Number 26 in Keeley’s February Writing Challenge
A resounding yes! I’m easy to love because I go with the flow not intentionally, but I have a diagnosed disorder called dissociative. Basically means a lot of things escape my attention and I live in dreamland a lot of the time.
I don’t let little things annoy me until they pile up so high I have to kick and scream to get out of that pile of shit. I seem to be tolerant but that’s because I don’t even notice your transgressions.
My children noticed my husband’s strange behaviour before I had any inkling he was having an affair. On the plus side, I was able to have six children without killing any of them. 😆
I said to Keeley yesterday that I used to let them all work out their own squabbles as children. I still do. The truth is I probably didn’t even notice the fighting until a bloodied head was placed in front of me. Keeley said that made me a bad mother. I should have intervened and stopped the “bullying.”
She attributes my failure in this regard to her and her siblings all having mental problems. I think it’s mostly genetic. My great-grandfather couldn’t cope with his children so committed suicide. My great-grandmother had to provide for her children and started a maternity…
